It's all so clear to me now. It's all so obvious. How did I not see it before? It had to happen like this. It always did. It was always going to.
I needed to be destroyed. I am a cancerous tumour and I needed to be eradicated. It's just natural selection. It raised me up to break me down. It showed me what I was inside. That's why I had to cut myself open. I had to see what was inside.
I see him now. The man who pulls the strings. It's time for me to go. The view from my balcony looks so lovely.